不懂...真的是我的問題嗎

跟東京唯一能聊天的一個朋友說起最近的一些事情
他說...該改變的是我
因為他覺得大概除了我以外
應該沒有人會像我一樣的處理這件事情
真的是我奇怪嗎
但我相信他說的...
想清楚吧...笨蛋...

Pissed off?...

It's been too many times.maybe it's impossible for me to catch up.afterall,it's a whole 5 years ahead.what am i?not important.at least not significant enough.stupid.as everyone thinks.kind.as some people call it.stubborn.as i see it.just not enough.never enough.never will be enough?sometimes i think that way.but not willing to give up yet.but not knowing who i'm up against.how is it ever possible?know your enemies.it's important.but how?no answer.no call.no answer.no call.bad news.overtime.too many things to do.no time to do it.oh.guess what.trial.and more.overtime.tired.pissed.no one dares asking.duh.no one wants to hear the cause.no news whatsoever though.what am i again?oh right.no one important.nothing worth stepping out for.it's ok.later then.still.knowing very well the reason makes it harder to accept.sour.same thing repeats itself.over and over.same kind of thoughts run through my head.over and over.smile.faked it.no rights.no rights.no way out.no doubts.no regrets.no chance.no complaining.ok.ok.think in others' shoes.black and white?no.grey.it's ok.it's ok.easy easy.understanding..............................

不想出門不想回家

禮拜六的晚上九點
週末的開始
但今天...
忙碌的禮拜六?
加班?
還是不愉快的討論?
心情太糟人也累..
什麼也不想要不想去不想做不想想
...這兩天,我需要什麼?
我大概需要電影,音樂,餅乾,和羽毛球吧....

From my classroom

看清楚一點
原來池袋的天空也可以很美.