多嘗試多挑戰！！

好久沒上來了...
前陣子的生活太平淡了，上來也沒話說.

但四月底的旅行實在讓我大開眼界..
在台灣的幾天和姐姐逛街逛瘋了
還和兩個朋友見面了.

一個是從高中就認識的人.
和他出去了一天，聊東聊西的，
當然還說到以前的事
沒辦法不說不想，
畢境那是十幾二十歲的事
幾乎很多的第一次都是跟他和他的朋友們一起的
很開心，很輕鬆的一天
因為跟他聊天可以讓自己的看法放寬一些
但仍然很舒服，不會有壓力。

另一個是很神奇在網路上認識了五六年
但今年第一次見面的人
跟他和他女朋友去山上和農場走走，
吃了個飯
到最後原來他們準備了生日蛋糕
為我慶祝生日
真的很感動
因為我們只是第一次見面
不過，雖然是第一次，
但感覺並不陌生
有點像是很久以前就認識的感覺。

在台灣總共待了四天，
但在菲律賓的十天才真的精彩
除了在馬尼拉的幾天，跟一些朋友去了一個叫做Embassy的club
跟他們打羽毛球, squash, 去rock climbing
還去了菲律賓七千多個島的其中兩個
在Boracay的三天
我們住在很舒服的地方，就在白沙前
不會游泳的我嘗試了第一次的parasailing和浮潛
感覺好棒！
parasailing的感覺很舒服，就在高高的地方看著白白的沙灘的風景
浮潛就在海上一邊飄著，一邊發現海底的生物
我以為那已經很漂亮
但在另一個島Palawan上，我還去了第一次的潛水！
還因為太漂亮了，早上去了一次之後，下午再去了一次!
在１３，１４米深的海底，看到了好幾隻海龜，還可以餵牠吃東西，幫牠抓背
牠們很善良，當你抓牠的背的時候，牠們因為感覺很舒服
所以臉上會像掛著笑容一樣的乖乖給你抓，順便說謝謝.
除了海龜，我們還看到了一見人就躲了起來的八爪魚，
Ｎemo裡面的小丑魚，
各種各樣的珊湖
還有上百的silverjack圍繞著我們
在水裡尋找這些的時候，因為只聽的見自己呼吸的聲音和水泡的聲音
所以很特別
好像什麼都不用管了的感覺
不知道怎麼形容才好，但一定要親身體驗才會了解
東京太吵了！我已經想要再去那安靜的海底了！

在我們住的島上，還看到蝙幅
怪怪的，不知道為什麼牠們會選我們住的resort去待

經過這次，我以後都不要叫累或叫怕了
如果因為會累或怕，而錯失了一些作新嘗試的機會
那一定會後悔！
因為這難忘的經驗，我以後一定要多嘗試！
Next up: conquer snowboarding, and try wakeboarding! (^_~)v

神奇的羽毛球

日本的羽毛球賽的等級好像很不規則..
新宿區的分四部；一部是最高等級的，四部是最初級的。
豐島區的分六級；中野區的只有分三級。
前兩天去了板橋區看他們一部的男雙和女雙..
很精彩，看的害我比他們還緊張，不認識的也為他們打氣。
看完的那天和第二天我都去打球了，
不知道是對手沒有很強還是我突然神奇的進步了...
兩天打的都好順手，也很少失誤。
我想大概是看了那些比賽學會了什麼吧~^^
而且原本還沒打的時候全身酸痛，
還想說完蛋了，待會一定會打不好><
結果打了幾球身體就完全沒事了！
身體不好的女生一定要試試..
一個周末下來身體沒酸痛了而且心情變好加自信上升！(^_____^)V

有過的幸福

很久沒有那種覺得自己很幸福的感覺了
第一次在感情路上覺得很幸福的時候
其實只是很單純的一聲hello
那是第一次。
很喜歡那個人，而剛好他也喜歡我，
跟著他的兩個好朋友害羞的慢慢的在我面前走過
跟我說了一聲hi
這樣就開心了一天了
在之後光是跟他在大太陽下在他家的附近閒逛
也是無限幸福

再來
我喜歡的人跟我說，
因為他家庭的背景
他發誓不讓女生哭
那時候，我覺的自己是最幸福的
因為我遇到一個覺得“男人不該讓女人流淚”的人

然後
另一個我喜歡的人
在我感冒時跟我說“要多喝開水多休息哦”
讓我覺得我被關心
很窩心

還有
一個跟我在香港過了一個聖誕節的人
把我送到家門後再自己坐火車地鐵過海回家
這讓我知道他必定會願意為我做更多
我唯一喜歡過的香港男生，
讓我知道香港還是有希望的！

後來
遇到一個以前愛過的人
遇到之後我們互相通信了好一陣子
透過文字，我們知道了大家都會永遠記住對方的好
有個人永遠記得你的好
當然是最幸運的
現在不確定他在台灣還是大陸還是溫哥華
但我還是不能忘記他
我的每天作息都會用到他的名字呢！

還有另一個人
他一天到晚會說我可愛
雖然他常常忙的沒有時間陪我
但因為他對他的目標的執著
因為他樂觀的個性
因為他願意努力而且不會埋怨
讓我知道他是個可靠而且會讓我成長自立的人
這樣也是種幸福吧

還有一個朋友們最搞不懂的
說真的我也不懂這是什麼感覺
也不知道到何年何月才會真的在我這邊結束
但他絕對是讓我覺得最幸福的

記得在天冷的時候
他會把我和另一個朋友送回家
但他一定會把他穿的暖暖的外套給我
而且不管其他人住那裡
我一定會是最後在他車上的人
跟他單獨相處幾分鐘
他也會在我哭過之後
第一個住意到我的眼睛而問候我
他總會在附近
不管有什麼事情發生
他就像個守護天使
在最近的幾年一直讓我覺得不管有什麼事情
我都可以不用怕
因為有他在

但最近已經沒有了這種幸福的感覺了
我想，也不會再有了
而且也不能再任性的已為這些都還在了．．

我需要一帖給我自信的藥

每個禮拜天固定報到的羽毛球酷拉部的水平實在不是我能挑戰的
每次辛辛苦苦的打也不一定會贏
雖然那樣很刺激
但多在那裡打害我自信都不見了
覺得自己一點用都沒有
所以今天換個地方換個心情
打算去兩年前剛到日本時去過的地方
去跟一些水平和我比較接近的人打
還有去欺負一下比我爛的人
哈哈~
相信今晚回來就可以大聲說
我是個大贏家！^^

The wonders of airbrushing

See for yourself how much lies the media has put into editorials,ads,etc...Check out the portfolio of this company...

重聽舊歌一首

不知道為什麼唱這首歌的人不見了
但這首歌是讓我每次聽到都忍不住懷念起十年前的生活的歌
點一下這裡聽聽囉

我愛你勝過這世界
曲︰黃國倫
詞︰MICHAEL

他傷透妳的心　憂傷的妳
讓我陪妳一起哭泣
我一直沒離開　我的心情
跟著妳起伏分不開
哦　所有的呼吸　都變成妳
妳的眼淚　我永遠都珍惜

如何告訴妳　我愛妳勝過這世界
妳是我永遠的寶貝
有了妳我生命才有意義

如何告訴妳　我愛妳勝過我自己
空等候我也不放棄
當妳回頭就會明白一切
我要妳自由自在的飛

哦　所有的心跳　都愛著妳
妳的笑容　就是我的明天

Satsuki

Satsuki is a 4-year-old tiny little girl with a head too big for her body, small eyes, but the sweetest heart and smile in the whole world.
She became my student when she was almost 3 years old...I taught her for a year and a half but at the end of last year, she had to move to another area of tokyo, so she had to stop her classes. On her last day, her mom got me a gift which Satsuki chose. It was a mug with little animals all around, some of which are cats. Her mom said that the reason she chose the mug was because she remembered I like drawing cats and that I probably like cats. It's funny because after having taught kids for a while, I found one interesting thing about kids. They never look at the big picture. They always notice the tiniest detail. So I'm sure on the day she went and chose the mug, there must have been other mugs with bigger cats drawn on them, but she chose this particular mug with tiny tiny cats. (does it have to do with her tiny eyes spotting tiny things? I don't know....) ...so on the last day, she gave me the mug, and she gave me so many hugs before she finally left the school. That was in mid-December 2005.

Yesterday, when I got back to school from my break, I saw her and her mom at the school! It was such a surprise....she didn't say much though. Her mom, instead, became her mouth...and told me every wednesday (the day she usually came to my lessons), Satsuki would wanna see me. It was so sweet (though it would have been much better if it came from Satsuki's mouth and not her mom's)...but still...it was nice seeing her...she was quiet and shy, well-behaved as usual. I told her I miss her, and that i'd like to see her again, although she probably didn't understand much of that....and we said goodbye.

I started going back to my classroom, but Satsuki came back! She ran back to me with open arms for a hug....I was so touched! She was such a sweet kid........awwww.....I love her....She's probably the only person in Tokyo who would miss me and who would want a hug from me so much that she'd come back from the elevator just to let me know how much she misses me with her hug in return.

Satsuki, I love you!^^

Start of 2006

This is no good...
only 2 months have passed since my last post and I feel 5 years older ><
every part of me feels old!
I blame it on having no badminton last weekend...so hopefully after this weekend of playing some badminton, I can get better everywhere...
if not, then obviously these symptoms of me getting old didn't come from my lack of exercise on one weekend...it either came from always exercising only on the weekend, or bad posture, or bad diet, or that I'm really getting old....
shiiish! touchwood! knock knock...

post-holidays depression

Christmas has always been my favorite holiday of all cuz of the music, atmosphere, weather, ... but every year, after the holidays, after Christmas and the New years, I always have to go under a period of post-holiday depression before getting back to my normal routine. I guess everybody is similar. As my holidays slowly approaches the end, i can feel my depression coming. 3 more days and i'll be back to Japan. it's been an interesting 10 days...I had fun with my family, I had fun talking to a new friend who i virtually met through badmintoncentral and physically met in Kowloon city gym playing badminton. His name is Calvin...interesting guy who graduated from UBC and very nice...we had fun playing badminton and talking afterwards. I had times when i felt like i was about to explode cuz of the noise, the language, the everything. but I also had times when i missed Japan a lot. I missed the peace, the freedom, the way I could do everything the way I like. so after all this, i really can't tell which place/lifestyle I prefer more.

but one part of me really wanted to go back to japan very soon. Mostly cuz I wanna spend more time thinking about the recent changes and the possible changes that may take place in the near future. In hong kong, it's always way to busy and noisy and frustrating to think of anything but what's happening at the moment. A few days from now, i can finally quiet down and think about the other important thing(s) in my life.........

Good bye Hong Kong...in a few days....

Been a while...

Time to decide if i'm staying longer or not...
i guess i am...
since i just moved to a new place.
it's funny how things change...plans change...
going into my third year here in april...
what can i say?
if it wasn't for.............
hmm....i guess when people get older, things always get more complicated...
so it's not so easy to decide things just based on one factor anymore.
if i were to decide to go back to canada just because i miss it, or to go back just because i know i won't stay in this company forever, then it'd be so much easier...
but no...
why are there so many things to consider all the time?
how long will i stay here? should i consider going to another country?
i don't wanna go to hk to work....nor do i know what to do back in vancouver...
oh man...
and........
and.....
and...
too many ifs ands buts.... ><

Meow

Fine October day...Meow...
This cat ALWAYS sits in the middle of the road! night and day!

Mine?

There used to be a few things that I thought only belonged to me
only me.
but apparently that's not true
how could it be true anyway?
just wishful thinking...

被皺紋吸引

喜歡上眼角的魚尾紋
那代表著幸福
是一個人開心活著的證據

不懂...真的是我的問題嗎

跟東京唯一能聊天的一個朋友說起最近的一些事情
他說...該改變的是我
因為他覺得大概除了我以外
應該沒有人會像我一樣的處理這件事情
真的是我奇怪嗎
但我相信他說的...
想清楚吧...笨蛋...

Pissed off?...

It's been too many times.maybe it's impossible for me to catch up.afterall,it's a whole 5 years ahead.what am i?not important.at least not significant enough.stupid.as everyone thinks.kind.as some people call it.stubborn.as i see it.just not enough.never enough.never will be enough?sometimes i think that way.but not willing to give up yet.but not knowing who i'm up against.how is it ever possible?know your enemies.it's important.but how?no answer.no call.no answer.no call.bad news.overtime.too many things to do.no time to do it.oh.guess what.trial.and more.overtime.tired.pissed.no one dares asking.duh.no one wants to hear the cause.no news whatsoever though.what am i again?oh right.no one important.nothing worth stepping out for.it's ok.later then.still.knowing very well the reason makes it harder to accept.sour.same thing repeats itself.over and over.same kind of thoughts run through my head.over and over.smile.faked it.no rights.no rights.no way out.no doubts.no regrets.no chance.no complaining.ok.ok.think in others' shoes.black and white?no.grey.it's ok.it's ok.easy easy.understanding..............................

不想出門不想回家

禮拜六的晚上九點
週末的開始
但今天...
忙碌的禮拜六?
加班?
還是不愉快的討論?
心情太糟人也累..
什麼也不想要不想去不想做不想想
...這兩天,我需要什麼?
我大概需要電影,音樂,餅乾,和羽毛球吧....

From my classroom

看清楚一點
原來池袋的天空也可以很美.

"muscle power frame"

沒有給它辦喪禮...

名字: Yonex 3U.G4 Ti-7 Long
死亡日期: 8/21/2005; 4:30pm
終年: 一歲兩個月.
主人狀況: 傷心的很.......
"可憐的Ti...怎麼死的這麼早...叫我以後怎麼過..."

睡不著?!

不喜歡這樣...
但就是睡不著

天要亮了...