Been a while...

Time to decide if i'm staying longer or not...
i guess i am...
since i just moved to a new place.
it's funny how things change...plans change...
going into my third year here in april...
what can i say?
if it wasn't for.............
hmm....i guess when people get older, things always get more complicated...
so it's not so easy to decide things just based on one factor anymore.
if i were to decide to go back to canada just because i miss it, or to go back just because i know i won't stay in this company forever, then it'd be so much easier...
but no...
why are there so many things to consider all the time?
how long will i stay here? should i consider going to another country?
i don't wanna go to hk to work....nor do i know what to do back in vancouver...
oh man...
and........
and.....
and...
too many ifs ands buts.... ><

Meow

Fine October day...Meow...
This cat ALWAYS sits in the middle of the road! night and day!

Mine?

There used to be a few things that I thought only belonged to me
only me.
but apparently that's not true
how could it be true anyway?
just wishful thinking...

被皺紋吸引

喜歡上眼角的魚尾紋
那代表著幸福
是一個人開心活著的證據

不懂...真的是我的問題嗎

跟東京唯一能聊天的一個朋友說起最近的一些事情
他說...該改變的是我
因為他覺得大概除了我以外
應該沒有人會像我一樣的處理這件事情
真的是我奇怪嗎
但我相信他說的...
想清楚吧...笨蛋...

Pissed off?...

It's been too many times.maybe it's impossible for me to catch up.afterall,it's a whole 5 years ahead.what am i?not important.at least not significant enough.stupid.as everyone thinks.kind.as some people call it.stubborn.as i see it.just not enough.never enough.never will be enough?sometimes i think that way.but not willing to give up yet.but not knowing who i'm up against.how is it ever possible?know your enemies.it's important.but how?no answer.no call.no answer.no call.bad news.overtime.too many things to do.no time to do it.oh.guess what.trial.and more.overtime.tired.pissed.no one dares asking.duh.no one wants to hear the cause.no news whatsoever though.what am i again?oh right.no one important.nothing worth stepping out for.it's ok.later then.still.knowing very well the reason makes it harder to accept.sour.same thing repeats itself.over and over.same kind of thoughts run through my head.over and over.smile.faked it.no rights.no rights.no way out.no doubts.no regrets.no chance.no complaining.ok.ok.think in others' shoes.black and white?no.grey.it's ok.it's ok.easy easy.understanding..............................

不想出門不想回家

禮拜六的晚上九點
週末的開始
但今天...
忙碌的禮拜六?
加班?
還是不愉快的討論?
心情太糟人也累..
什麼也不想要不想去不想做不想想
...這兩天,我需要什麼?
我大概需要電影,音樂,餅乾,和羽毛球吧....

From my classroom

看清楚一點
原來池袋的天空也可以很美.

"muscle power frame"

沒有給它辦喪禮...

名字: Yonex 3U.G4 Ti-7 Long
死亡日期: 8/21/2005; 4:30pm
終年: 一歲兩個月.
主人狀況: 傷心的很.......
"可憐的Ti...怎麼死的這麼早...叫我以後怎麼過..."

睡不著?!

不喜歡這樣...
但就是睡不著

天要亮了...

蟑螂

一個人住在日本,本來以為最怕的是地震...
第二個夏天到了
發現我什麼都不怕
不怕一個人孤單
不怕晚上一個人走那條暗暗的街回家
不怕迷路
也不怕語言不通做事不方便

最怕的卻是蟑螂!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
想到牠的存在就讓我起雞皮疙瘩...
好恐怖的東西~~~
m(>___<)m

亂

房間乾淨整齊的時候總會讓心情好起來
最近連稍微整理一下的時間都沒有
心情當然亂,當然糟.

還好.
我想我已經習慣了東京的冷淡了
走在忙碌的街上
我可以完全不管旁邊的人
心情好或不好都不會被影響
這樣可以讓我吵雜凌亂的頭腦清醒一點.
一切都看的清楚一點.

Never Enough...

Time.
Money.
Cookies.

Just to name a couple of things that I can never get enough of.

But "time" has to be the thing I need the most but is impossible to get more of...
If only there was more time to do everything...
There is so much I haven't done...
and so much I wanna do...
What can anyone do about this though?
Nothing.
And when one has the will to do something but there is an unchangeable factor stopping it from happening...

I can only say...
it feels like shit. ><

壞...

今天一起來就什麼都不對了...
不舒服.
想東想西.
遲到.
脖子肩膀雙腿全部酸痛.
喉嚨也痛.
東京整天在下雨.
還打雷.
上班開會時因為學校業績沒有達到
氣氛很糟.
大家都在想辦法改善現況.
上課了.
一節課45分鐘.
第一個7:10學生進來.
第二個7:20學生進來.
第三個7:30學生才來.
弄得課上的不三不四的.
真搞不懂這些人.
要是聰明就算了.
永遠不來我也不管
頭腦慢.
好.
那也算了.
至少要準時上課啊.
搞不懂.
搞不懂.
搞不懂.
煩.
煩.
煩.

怎麼了...

Last resort

Which stupid country requires residents to pay the income tax of 2 countries when they're not even living in the country, working in the country, using the country's facilities, or even breathing the air of the country?! Canada.
Yes...and because of this law, I must stay in Japan for another year...until April of next year.

I was so disappointed at first...cuz staying in Japan for a longer time means I'll have to postpone my plan to go back to school to study DTP...which also means I'll be older and older as I work my way through my "not-yet-started-career".
But...I've decided...
If I keep thinking about the people, things, and places in Canada, it's just gonna make me feel miserable in the year to come. Since I have no choice now, I might as well make the best out of the time I'll stay in Japan. I have to say that Japan is a good country to live in, despite the costs.......
the people are all nice and honest here; my way of living is perfect here.

Is it possible for me to stay longer? mmm...yes...one more year...
This probably disappointed the very few people who were expecting me...but there are still soooo much to do, so much to see, so much to learn...maybe it's not such a bad idea after all...

有甚麼讓我抓住

壞習慣怎麼都改不了.
討厭.
早就該吃進肚子拉到太平洋流回土裡再長出來再吃掉了.
還在那邊死想爛想.
沒有人會記得的.
放棄吧.

雖然,那可能是我最珍貴的.

Why the hell am I trying to grasp onto things that don't even exist anymore?!

掃把佬'新'車

Subaru 360

台場昭和年代的價錢

100 Yen Katsudon found in Odaiba.........what a lie!