Tournament and badminton

Played a couple of tournaments recently...and the result?
very close games, but lost....
I wonder which is better....
to lose just by a little bit against someone at the same level, or to be beaten by someone too too strong for me...?
I have no idea, but the first case was what happened....
and I got so mad at myself...for being too nervous and therefore making mistakes that I would not usually make...
so after the tournament, I played for the whole day...to practice, and to see what level I am at...
and I am so sure that I was so much better when i wasnt in the tournament than when I was.........
damn...
not good...
gotta remember...down down down....
relax...
no worries...

well... good thing is it's finally mid november!!
which means I get to go back to Vancouver for the first time in 2 years!!
yay!!!
badminton gathering on friday should be good...
and should be much easier than today's games @@

new guy today at badminton...seems nice...
his name is maomao...
doesnt play well though @@
looks are deceiving...
definitely true....
and met the guys again...which is nice....

tetsu has a gf already! it's only been a month or so since the last time i met him!
and the cool guy's name is actually Ken! my god....
funny but I actually really wanted to meet them....mmmmmm