post-holidays depression

Christmas has always been my favorite holiday of all cuz of the music, atmosphere, weather, ... but every year, after the holidays, after Christmas and the New years, I always have to go under a period of post-holiday depression before getting back to my normal routine. I guess everybody is similar. As my holidays slowly approaches the end, i can feel my depression coming. 3 more days and i'll be back to Japan. it's been an interesting 10 days...I had fun with my family, I had fun talking to a new friend who i virtually met through badmintoncentral and physically met in Kowloon city gym playing badminton. His name is Calvin...interesting guy who graduated from UBC and very nice...we had fun playing badminton and talking afterwards. I had times when i felt like i was about to explode cuz of the noise, the language, the everything. but I also had times when i missed Japan a lot. I missed the peace, the freedom, the way I could do everything the way I like. so after all this, i really can't tell which place/lifestyle I prefer more.

but one part of me really wanted to go back to japan very soon. Mostly cuz I wanna spend more time thinking about the recent changes and the possible changes that may take place in the near future. In hong kong, it's always way to busy and noisy and frustrating to think of anything but what's happening at the moment. A few days from now, i can finally quiet down and think about the other important thing(s) in my life.........

Good bye Hong Kong...in a few days....

Been a while...

Time to decide if i'm staying longer or not...
i guess i am...
since i just moved to a new place.
it's funny how things change...plans change...
going into my third year here in april...
what can i say?
if it wasn't for.............
hmm....i guess when people get older, things always get more complicated...
so it's not so easy to decide things just based on one factor anymore.
if i were to decide to go back to canada just because i miss it, or to go back just because i know i won't stay in this company forever, then it'd be so much easier...
but no...
why are there so many things to consider all the time?
how long will i stay here? should i consider going to another country?
i don't wanna go to hk to work....nor do i know what to do back in vancouver...
oh man...
and........
and.....
and...
too many ifs ands buts.... ><

Meow

Fine October day...Meow...
This cat ALWAYS sits in the middle of the road! night and day!

Mine?

There used to be a few things that I thought only belonged to me
only me.
but apparently that's not true
how could it be true anyway?
just wishful thinking...

被皺紋吸引

喜歡上眼角的魚尾紋
那代表著幸福
是一個人開心活著的證據

不懂...真的是我的問題嗎

跟東京唯一能聊天的一個朋友說起最近的一些事情
他說...該改變的是我
因為他覺得大概除了我以外
應該沒有人會像我一樣的處理這件事情
真的是我奇怪嗎
但我相信他說的...
想清楚吧...笨蛋...

Pissed off?...

It's been too many times.maybe it's impossible for me to catch up.afterall,it's a whole 5 years ahead.what am i?not important.at least not significant enough.stupid.as everyone thinks.kind.as some people call it.stubborn.as i see it.just not enough.never enough.never will be enough?sometimes i think that way.but not willing to give up yet.but not knowing who i'm up against.how is it ever possible?know your enemies.it's important.but how?no answer.no call.no answer.no call.bad news.overtime.too many things to do.no time to do it.oh.guess what.trial.and more.overtime.tired.pissed.no one dares asking.duh.no one wants to hear the cause.no news whatsoever though.what am i again?oh right.no one important.nothing worth stepping out for.it's ok.later then.still.knowing very well the reason makes it harder to accept.sour.same thing repeats itself.over and over.same kind of thoughts run through my head.over and over.smile.faked it.no rights.no rights.no way out.no doubts.no regrets.no chance.no complaining.ok.ok.think in others' shoes.black and white?no.grey.it's ok.it's ok.easy easy.understanding..............................

不想出門不想回家

禮拜六的晚上九點
週末的開始
但今天...
忙碌的禮拜六?
加班?
還是不愉快的討論?
心情太糟人也累..
什麼也不想要不想去不想做不想想
...這兩天,我需要什麼?
我大概需要電影,音樂,餅乾,和羽毛球吧....

From my classroom

看清楚一點
原來池袋的天空也可以很美.

"muscle power frame"

沒有給它辦喪禮...

名字: Yonex 3U.G4 Ti-7 Long
死亡日期: 8/21/2005; 4:30pm
終年: 一歲兩個月.
主人狀況: 傷心的很.......
"可憐的Ti...怎麼死的這麼早...叫我以後怎麼過..."

睡不著?!

不喜歡這樣...
但就是睡不著

天要亮了...

蟑螂

一個人住在日本,本來以為最怕的是地震...
第二個夏天到了
發現我什麼都不怕
不怕一個人孤單
不怕晚上一個人走那條暗暗的街回家
不怕迷路
也不怕語言不通做事不方便

最怕的卻是蟑螂!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
想到牠的存在就讓我起雞皮疙瘩...
好恐怖的東西~~~
m(>___<)m

亂

房間乾淨整齊的時候總會讓心情好起來
最近連稍微整理一下的時間都沒有
心情當然亂,當然糟.

還好.
我想我已經習慣了東京的冷淡了
走在忙碌的街上
我可以完全不管旁邊的人
心情好或不好都不會被影響
這樣可以讓我吵雜凌亂的頭腦清醒一點.
一切都看的清楚一點.

Never Enough...

Time.
Money.
Cookies.

Just to name a couple of things that I can never get enough of.

But "time" has to be the thing I need the most but is impossible to get more of...
If only there was more time to do everything...
There is so much I haven't done...
and so much I wanna do...
What can anyone do about this though?
Nothing.
And when one has the will to do something but there is an unchangeable factor stopping it from happening...

I can only say...
it feels like shit. ><

壞...

今天一起來就什麼都不對了...
不舒服.
想東想西.
遲到.
脖子肩膀雙腿全部酸痛.
喉嚨也痛.
東京整天在下雨.
還打雷.
上班開會時因為學校業績沒有達到
氣氛很糟.
大家都在想辦法改善現況.
上課了.
一節課45分鐘.
第一個7:10學生進來.
第二個7:20學生進來.
第三個7:30學生才來.
弄得課上的不三不四的.
真搞不懂這些人.
要是聰明就算了.
永遠不來我也不管
頭腦慢.
好.
那也算了.
至少要準時上課啊.
搞不懂.
搞不懂.
搞不懂.
煩.
煩.
煩.

怎麼了...

Last resort

Which stupid country requires residents to pay the income tax of 2 countries when they're not even living in the country, working in the country, using the country's facilities, or even breathing the air of the country?! Canada.
Yes...and because of this law, I must stay in Japan for another year...until April of next year.

I was so disappointed at first...cuz staying in Japan for a longer time means I'll have to postpone my plan to go back to school to study DTP...which also means I'll be older and older as I work my way through my "not-yet-started-career".
But...I've decided...
If I keep thinking about the people, things, and places in Canada, it's just gonna make me feel miserable in the year to come. Since I have no choice now, I might as well make the best out of the time I'll stay in Japan. I have to say that Japan is a good country to live in, despite the costs.......
the people are all nice and honest here; my way of living is perfect here.

Is it possible for me to stay longer? mmm...yes...one more year...
This probably disappointed the very few people who were expecting me...but there are still soooo much to do, so much to see, so much to learn...maybe it's not such a bad idea after all...

有甚麼讓我抓住

壞習慣怎麼都改不了.
討厭.
早就該吃進肚子拉到太平洋流回土裡再長出來再吃掉了.
還在那邊死想爛想.
沒有人會記得的.
放棄吧.

雖然,那可能是我最珍貴的.

Why the hell am I trying to grasp onto things that don't even exist anymore?!

掃把佬'新'車

Subaru 360

台場昭和年代的價錢

100 Yen Katsudon found in Odaiba.........what a lie!

台場一丁目商店街

台場一丁目商店街

模仿日本眧和30年代的商店街.正在營業的店舖賣的大部分是台場著名的特產,或是30年代的零食.走著走著你會發現商店櫥窗的東西的價錢會突然變成不可思議的低.我還差點走進了一家拉麵只要70?的餐廳呢.結果看一看門才發現那只是讓大家了解舊日本的方法..再看一看招牌才發現當時日本的電話號碼只有6個號碼呢....所以逛完這個地方也知道了不少.原來保齡球是那時候才開始流行的.那時候因為一般人家裡不一定有電視,所以電影院是另一種娛樂...一般人一年可能都會到訪12、3次..戰後因為開始有西洋風的浸入,所以建築物和民間娛樂都會多少受一點西方的影響.
當時流行的車子原來是"Subaru 360"......愛車的你...有看過嗎?

Happy Valentine's...again!

白色情人節到了...男生們,如果你們在二月的情人節沒有選個小禮物送你親愛的honey,是時候補送了哦...藉今天把握機會再次製造浪漫吧!o(^_^)o

忙啊忙啊

這個禮拜的工作不知道為什麼會忙不過來...好像已經好久好久沒有放假似的.今天心情更糟...明明公司氣氛好好的,上頭突然來了一個很奇怪的人...這個人笑容很假,講話很慢,很沒有感情,是那種你怎麼努力聽都沒辦法知道他在想什麼的人.他會到處用他那種很不友善的語氣跟學生講話嚇他們. 因為他的出現,害大家都緊張起來...好不容易下班了...以為可以鬆一口氣...結果連電梯都要按三次才可以真的走!(><)

...氣呀

終於走到樓下了...又被三個平排走在我前面的人擋住我回家的路...

...更氣

走了兩步前面的人開始抽煙...還剛好被風吹到我臉上...受不了...臭死了!!! (*___*)

...氣氣氣氣氣氣瘋了!!

在Canada/SFU拍的電影

最近看了一部電影叫My Life Without Me.原本完全不知道這是什麼樣的電影.就連封套都完全不會引起我的注意.會把它從錄影帶店的櫃子上拿下來,純粹因為喜歡它的名字.
看著看著...竟然越來越喜歡.不只是因為故事感人...女主角在電影裡面竟然是晚間在SFU工作的清潔工人!看到她努力的擦我以前上課看過的黑板,清理在AQ的那排lockers,還有在我以前常唸書的地方努力掃那裡的地板,讓我看到我常在那裡混時間的White Spot...讓我想起最快樂的大學生涯...真的是越看越喜歡...但言歸正傳...這部加拿大的電影雖然成本低,故事簡單,但可以感動人心...
假如有一天我不在的話,會不會像電影裡面一樣有另外一個人代替我生活,工作,和替我愛我愛的人呢?我身邊的人是不是可以接受另外一個人做我平時會做的事情?...

涉谷Tokyu Hands二樓

我最愛的Tokyu Hands.

日本建國紀念日

二月十一號是日本建國紀念日,在公元六百六十年初代神武天皇即位的日子.很多神社都有一些儀式去紀念這個重要的日子.有些人會在家門掛上國旗,甚至唱國歌.對於我來說,這天應該是叫做'好不容易等到的假期'...所以明天我照常去打球然後回家上網混...

看來,我還是不夠投入這個社會.(-_-);;

上下班的路

這就是我在日本每天回家和出門必經的小巷子. 其中一邊是住宅,另一邊是個國中. 每天經過都會看得到一點點的日本文化.
有時候看到他們上體育課,就會了解為甚麼日本人可以這麼的有規律.這裡的學生就連在操場跑圈也會排著隊的跑.邊跑邊喊著口號.這樣子就不會有任何所謂比較優劣的學生了.在這個社會,每個人都儘量讓自己跟別人一樣.這裡的國中和高中學生還有個習慣.而且你可以一眼看的出這個學生是不是個好學生.愛玩的男生一下課就會把領帶解開,把褲子拉超低裝酷.愛玩的女生會一下課就把原本的及膝百摺校裙拉高變成超級迷你裙.
要是你不這樣子,你大概就會被歸類成'俗'的人吧...

Opaque

Opaque in Ginza,Tokyo.
四層的化妝品,護膚品,和衣服...全日本的女生的面具就是從這種店做出來的.走在路上,幾乎不會看到素臉的女生...為甚麼這個社會這麼的淺薄?

1/6,000,000,000

The odds that I would meet you in this great big world were 6,000,000,000 to 1.
It's a miracle we found each other.